The Little Things

Table of Contents:

*Introduction (Self Introduction)
*Body (Main Story of the Journal Entry)
*Footnotes (Contains additional trivial information)

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Warning! The following Journal Entry may contain Curses, Magic Spells, Black Magic, Witchcraft, and General works of Wizardry which are not suitable for children under 30 years of age. Viewer Discretion is Advised.

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INTRODUCTION:

I'm an IT college student studying to become a Web Dev, I'm quite a closet pervert and by that I mean I'm extremely perverted, I really like Anime, Hentai, Manga, Hentai Manga, Doujinshi, Hentai Doujinshi, Hentai in General and Playing Games.

Basically I'm a useless piece of shit of a human being, a fucking disgrace to my family, a waste of oxygen, space, and human resources, a degenerate retard who loves porn (Yeah, I also like porn with actual people in it), a failure who somehow never gained success, a lowlife who wants to be cool someday but can't, an idiot who hopes and thinks someday girls will notice him somehow and someday someone will like him, an overall loser who's desperate for attention but never gets it, a hopeless talentless fucktard who wants to have friends but can't, a piece of trash that doesn't deserve to be called Human, to be a Human or even be treated as one. So yeah... Please Send Help.

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I have this crappy 10 year old "HP Pavilion dv1000" Laptop running Windows XP SP3 Black edition that my Uncle gave me (mostly because he's about to throw it away anyway) a few months back. It can't even handle upgrading to Windows 7. It can't run games like Gmod at lowest possible settings. I can play it, but only in flat maps (e.g. flat grass) without any features like buildings, but even in flat maps it lags, also the map is super bright, the grass is yellow because of the brightness and water is bright white ish, this is because of the graphics card that couldn't handle shit, so the color brightness is fixed to a blinding color palette. It lags on flash games, I mean really!? you couldn't let me play flash games properly too? -_- Some Flash Games can't even be opened because of the fucking lag.

But despite all of that I'm still thankful to have this laptop, at the very least I can watch Anime, Human Porn (From now on I shall call it Human Porn), Hentai, read Manga, Hentai Manga, Doujinshi, Hentai Doujinshi, browse Facebook, Tumblr, Pinterest and other social media sites and share stuff like my work online (like how I do in Deviantart).

Maybe you're asking "Why not buy a new Laptop or PC?", No! Seriously, we can't afford that shit, we're poor as fuck, we can't afford something as simple as a TV, so we still use our broken ass grey/gray "Sharp Primo 21v-w70m" TV (Look it up, it's a Bulky old Tube Type TV) that my Uncle gave us a few years ago (He's the same guy who gave me my Laptop, he also gave us that Stand Fan that has a timer so it turns itself off when the timer stops which was cool.), [Edit/Update] It is now unusable, we can't use the TV anymore now that it's broken so no TV, that sucks. My parents are struggling to support my college education, and I can't do anything to help them with some cash cause I can't get myself a part time job to help them since college occupies 6 days of my weekly schedule. I need to get a job but then it would have to be night shift since I go to college for the whole day from 6:00am to 5:00pm (that's 6:00 to 17:00), and my parents won't allow me since I would lose time and focus for my education. I have Sunday which is free from any schedule but I'm obviously not gonna get any job where I'll only need to work for one day each week, specially at a resting day or weekend such as Sunday.

Earlier this month in the first week of June, I got my hands on a copy of a full version of PaintTool SAI (Obviously, I couldn't have afforded to buy a License or a full version of PaintTool SAI, so how did I get my hands on a full version copy of it for free? Same way I got Gmod and I'm not telling you how.), and amazingly, it works perfectly fine on my crappy Laptop. To my excitement I opened it immediately after installation and started messing with it. I started messing with the brush and quickly learned how to use it, I learned the mechanics and technical stuff (Easy to learn since it was basic and user friendly or easy to use), I played with it for hours on end, and while playing with it I started painting a cold looking blue sky and ended up painting an image for the whole day, I finished the image in the following day, and the day after that I made little adjustments and finishing touches (That image is already submitted here in my Deviantart account, it's in my storage though, I'll put it up later for public viewing, incase someone actually stumbles upon my deviantart account at least it will have something in it along with this journal entry. [Edit/Update] It is now in my gallery.), it was my first ever digital art and is the main reason I made this free Deviantart account in the first place. (Actually there are stuff I made with my really old version of MS Paint that came with Windows XP SP3, seriously though, there's an option to turn an image into a Black and White image, you would think that it would turn into something like what you would see in a black and white TV, or like normal black and white images, but no! It turns it into literally just black and white, pure black and pure white, it has neither shades nor tints, just the fact that the lighter part of the image becomes pure white, and the darker part becomes pure black, it becomes unrecognizable, like what would happen if you were to dip an incredibly intricate piece art or painting into a bath of black paint and then splatter it with white paint. Like a black guys face being ejaculated into, black people are cool though, I don't know what else to call them cause I don't know any other cool way to call them, I mean Black is cool, I like that color. There's also that painting that I made using PaintTool SAI in my friend's PC. This was about a month before I got my own copy of SAI on my Laptop. I didn't really try to learn about PaintTool SAI mechanics back when I was painting it, I just used few brushes to make a painting of a beach for about 15 minutes, didn't really work much on it and I didn't get serious with it, I was just having fun so I don't recognize it as anything sort of an art, to me it's more like a quick rough sketch on piece of paper while at class, same goes with the ones I made on MS Paint.).

It was exciting because before that, I was stuck with MS Paint. I ended up downloading a lot of Brush Textures, Canvas Texture etc. for PaintTool SAI, copied some custom brush settings from other people on deviant art, and made a handful of custom brush myself while painting my first digital art. And earlier this morning I got myself a copy of a full version of Adobe PhotoShop (The same way I got myself a copy of PaintTool SAI and Gmod, still not telling you how though.) and made a simple gif.

It's quite hard to paint or draw to stuff cause I'm still using the touch-pad/track-pad on my Laptop to draw, although it is still fun to do so. I obviously can't afford a Pen Tablet so I'm stuck with this (it's as hard as my Magical Wand when it stood upon the mere sight of a beautiful young lady, which quite sucked as she is my cousin, although a distant relative (3rd cousin), it's still seen as immoral in my country -_-). And this is the end of the little portion in the vast story of my saddening life and the little things that make it a little better.

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So, "to whom is this journal for?" you might ask, and the answer to that question is simply everybody, anybody who somehow stumbles upon my account and also for myself. As I have thought that no one here knows who I am, I felt the need to share a little about myself. No one here knows my identity and thus make it easier to share such information, in other words it's less embarrassing to do so here than face to face with the people in real life. This journal might be updated in the future for additional stories of my life or other matter.

P.S. I still really wanna fuck my cousin, like seriously, she's cute and like really hot.

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